Last night we decided to go to bed early. I haven't been sleeping well since I arrived in Florida and after a few nights in a row, I'm pretty spent and it really starts to wear on me. The last time this happened I actually fell asleep on the living room floor and couldn't get up to get myself to bed for more than an hour of dozing on and off. Me and my weird sleep issues.
Anyway just before turning in early last night, I went to check on Jaiden and remind him to get his teeth brushed and Jaiden said "Mom, you are a good Mom" with a gentle, content smile. Then as he and I were walking back to his room so I could tuck him in and give him a hug goodnight, he turned to me and said "I love you."
This has hasn't happened in a long time. Usually I always tell him I love him, and to that he replies, "me too". Usually he is angry at me and thinks I'm a bad Mom because I won't let him have sugar or buy him toys or have his way with things.
He is growing up though and I think he is starting to understand why I do the things I do, and it is because I love him so much and want the best for him. I'm so happy that the transition from Utah to Florida has been such a good one for him, and the he is enjoying his new house, new school and new environment. He has such an energy of peace about him. I think the limit of sugar in his diet is finally working, no more nasty crashes, just a more loving, even and balanced little boy that I adore.
What a great kid. It's these moments, that make all the hard stuff worth it, and you know every challenge and every sacrifice you make for your little one(s) is paying off. I had a thought the other day that someday I might be a grandma . Jaiden will be an adult in 10 short years. I find it hard to believe that it's already been almost 8 and a 1/2 years since he was born. It is true what people say, they do grow up too fast. One minute you are changing diapers the next they are going to third grade, and well I can't bear to think about anything past this.
Just thinking that someday in the not so distant future I may be a grandma to Jaiden's kids, is just too much. He is already so independent, and he has been his own person from the day he was born. Right now I just need my only child, my little man, to stay little, for a little while longer.